slowly trying not to self harm..slowly giving in to slicing open my wrists..
I can't control myself any longer.
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Dear little twisted bitch
you sit there all alone
dolled up like trash
waiting for someone to take you home.
how does it feel now
to have them push you up against the wall?
you remember all those nights you wanted help
and you just found your drugs..
well now your good as dead
isn’t your life turning out swell
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My skin feels like its crawling
like it needs to be ripped open
I need to see blood pouring
I need the pain
Fuck I need to feel again
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If you would like to ask me questions
I don’t mind asking
This blog is connected to my main blog (punxchaosanarchy)
I have a askfm if you’d like to leave messages
I’ve had a few people who want to know more about me
and for some reason my advice
Go ahead and ask whatever you wish.
ask.fm/punxchaosanarchy
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A part of me wants you to know the real me. But at the same time I’m scared to show you. I’m scared that you’ll reject me. I’m even more scared I’m going to push you away because I don’t want you to see how much of a train wreck I can be. My biggest fear at this moment is that you will stop loving me,once you see me for who I truly am. Because I guess I’m good at hiding it. So you don’t notice. I’m sorry. I love you. I hope that when you and I meet for the first time after almost 5 years , you will still love me. As you do now.
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I get that everyone has there opinion but I do not believe that my scars make me ugly. I never have called myself ugly. Don’t tell me I’m a sick twisted person because I have scars. Self harm is not my only scars. Yes they are some of my more visible ones but they are not the only ones I have on my body. You can be beautiful or handsome with your scars. I will not hide who I am or who I have always been. We can do the impossible by making a stand. You all are beautiful with any imperfection you have.
Also to the person who says you can’t be pretty with stretch marks. I honestly believe you can be, Due to my up and down weight loss and gain I have discovered stretch marks. To me they just make me realize that I am moving into my skin more. Even with pregnant woman, your stretch marks show that you brought a beautiful child into the world.
Don’t let someone tell you that your scars, stretch marks, burn marks or any other type of scar do not make you beautiful. They make you who you are.
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Does this make you want to be me now? Didn’t think so
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I can’t hide who I am anymore. I am a cutter and I am not the only one.
